24th Feb

The Obsessive Diary

I am frightened all the time. I put myself up for challenging things - I’ve got a host of them coming up - and in the early hours as I wake I think, I just want a break and yet I keep saying yes because in the aftermath of each I’ll feel more alive, more connected and in touch than I do when terror screeches through me, urging me to stop, cancel everything, step outside of my body.